i am not: what you think i hurt: because nothing goes right i love: my family, friends i hate: judgement,ignorance,fear,myself i fear: rejection,society i hope: things turn out well i hear: the way that i feel - diffuser i crave: someone to understand i regret: almost every choice i made. i cry: almost everyday i care: about my family and friends i always: need to be listening to music i long to: escape i feel alone: all the time even when i am surrounded by people i listen: whatever i like. i hide: who i am i drive: not yet, not old enough i sing: when i am alone i dance: never i write: stories, lyrics, poetry, diaries, memoirs, i breathe: the air i play: nothing, not talented i miss: my brother who is in Alberta right now. and i am scared because there was a tonado there yesterday. i search: for myself i learn: how to hide i feel: afraid,alone,confused i know: that it'll end one day i say: it doesn't hurt. but it does. i succeed: at pretending to be someone i fail: at being happy i dream: all day and all night i sleep: from like 1 till noon i wonder: When this will get better. When i will be happy i want: money,happiness,getting accepted for the way i look. i worry: about my mom,school,money,brother i have: to stay strong i give: what i can i fight: for my sanity i wait: and wait and wait i need: someone to understand i am: not sure i think: about what will happen i can't help the fact that: No one wants to know me. i sit: here waiting for someone to love me.