I'm feeling like shit today, i am really trying to not think about my situation with my friends. things are pretty crazy now. i just don't know what to do. Giselle is no help. she's so desperate for those girls friendships, she doesn't even see that she is different. i mean she changes depending on who she is with, and i am just not sure who she is now. it's so hard to read her. I'm hoping my brother calls, just so i can say hi. he's going to be home Augest 1,2,3,4. one of those days. I am going blueberry picking with Giselle next weekend, and still dreading it. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. so many emotions. i just can't breathe here. i feel like i am suffocating.