i was feeling like shit this morning so i didn't go to school. I still feel crappy and my friend calling me saying a have a huge fucking test tomorrow didn't do me too much good either. idiot. Last night i was really close to a mental breakdown. i was so unstable. Now i am feeling better. i swear i must have Bi Polar. I still have all those emotions, but i have forced them back down into my heart, where they will remain until something sets them off again like what happened last night. I slept until 12:35. I saw the new Peter Pan. I can't get it out of my head and my dreams. the boy in it is cute. But the idea of running away and the idea of neverland just stayed in my head. it would be so cool to be Wendy, but i wouldn't go home. i would send my brothers but i would stay with Peter Pan. i'm such a loser. i can't believe i just said that. I am talking to Mecca(numbatfouram). hes so nice to me. makes me smile. He is like a big brother. which i really need now adays since my brother is in bc. I just going to listen to music. and think.