Listening to: when doves cry
Feeling: romantic
Its friday and i am home, surprise surprise.
i haven't been on here for a bit. i have alot of stuff happening lately. i had a huge math assignment last night, i failed it, i know it, because alot of my answers had holes in them. but that is mostly because i never did the homework. i volunteered tonight, but i got to leave a half an hour early, because their was only one kid. my legs hurt like a bitch for no reason.
Tomorrow i am going to the pet store. it's been almost 8 months since hunter passed away. i still hurt. i have a hole in my heart. i am not sure if this is a good idea. but i am hoping i can get another bunny, and treat that one right. makes sure that one lives longer then 10 months. i don't know why that little bunny meant so much to me. i just think it is because he was in my room. he was part of me. he was mine. i loved him so much. When i got in a fight with my sister, and she would pull my hair, or punch my face so hard, i felt numb. i would go up to my room, and just hold him and cry. so much pain was absorbed, maybe that's why he died so early. I am afraid of this pain. I am afriad of this.
I hate boys sometimes. I used to like this guy, but when we got to grade 9 , he totally cut off our "friendship" i don't know what to call it, because we would talk, and we were friendly, and i would try to flirt, but i am such a doof. and sometimes i swear he was flirting. but i don't know. its not like he could be interested because its me. anyway i really liked our friendship. but now i realized he was probably just using me to get my friend that he liked. but now i have to sit beside him in french, and he doesn't talk to me or anything. i am trying to get him to notice me and just talk to me. i am having all these old feelings i DON'T want!
I have to babysit tomorrow at 5 30. i love babysitting. but they only want me to babysit until 7 because her mom can only get there at 7. stupid people *they ripped me off once* but i mean don't tell me that. i don't think they trust me enough to put them to bed.
STUPID FUCKING AVRIL LAVINGE STOLE MY HAIR STYLE!!! FUCKING BITCH POSER TRAMP UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am going to get it done anyway, cept better. ugh i haye her she totally conformed
)jake(
sorry bout that guy :-
if u wanna talk jus lev a comment
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I see you have some baggage;
actually, you’ve brought quite a lot!
But, of course, this is the place for it;
this is the perfect spot.
Oh! Guilt and fear are with you;
yes, of course, that’s quite all right.
We wouldn’t want you sleeping well;
that really ruins OUR nights.
There are things to eat at the sideboard:
just words and junk and pain.
All the things that you can’t swallow now
will, of course, be served again.
We’re all so glad you’ve come.
Let us know what we might do
to keep you feeling numb.
May your stay be long and bitter;
may your problems keep piling on.
May your tortured soul keep bleeding
until all you love is gone.
Shelley Haggard
Gah... I got called a poser because I was wearing the tie thing when she (Avril) came out. It pissed me off. >:|
Then people said I was trying to be like her because I got my hair straightened... and it was brown and long like hers. Stupid fucks. So I cut my hair. LoL. Yups! =)
Wellllllll, talk to you soon. =)
--Sarah--