Listening to: This Old Wound - Dashboard Confessional
Feeling: longing
i guess it's officially christmas eve. even if the stupid entry date still says the 23. i't 2 in the morning, and i am sitting here, listening to Dashboard, and thinking. I am dreading christmas. it's going to be hellish, and lonely. my sister is bringing her boyfriend. my brother's girlfriend will pop by, and my parents are together. i'm such a loser. i hate this. But i know i will pretend to smile. My parents haven't even went shopping yet anyway. they are going tomorrow. they are unorganised. well, so am i. i haven't went shopping yet either. it's not like christmas is something i'm anticipating. nope. in fact i think i might just sleep through it. i slept till 2 pm today. that's why i'm not tired. it snowed a shit load today. i hate the snow. but i like the cold breeze. i like being cold. i like being so cold your numb. i want that feeling again. So i went with my dad to pick up my sister. and i ended up getting yelled at many times. i promised myself i wouldn't cut. but there is only so much someone can take. i buckled under the pain. i'm an idiot. oh well. it's not like it hurts anyone, it keeps me sane..but Is this really sanity? Or am i kidding myself?
I guess it's pain that tortures this poet.
how have you been my ghetto*lovely?
im in school as we speak! ughh* im ganna run away from this place i dont like these people .. haha ill live with someone that wants to take me in lol uhh yeahh im ganna go now bye love
ghetto♥love
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hows your day going? by the sounds of things its not going too well ..
mine isnt either ..
just because its pointless because i cant get what I really want*
I think the christmas holiday was great .. when I still believed in Santa and my mom bought everyone presents and signed them from me .. now I guess I care too much ..
merry.christmas.
x3*mEgAn
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Thats cool!
Sam's rule.
Cutting yourself isn't so bad I guess, at least your not like me and use alcohol as your way of release.
Edit---
Used to use alcohol.
Anyway cool diary, blah blah blah.
Sammy
iamsharee
well, i'm not sure what you meanbut
i know it's always best to just put all the bad things behind.
merry christmas
tell me if you have any trouble
but who are you?