It seems like lately i haven't been very talkative. i guess things have been all over the scale. I mean some things have been so good and others, horrible. i mean everything that could go wrong has, but then there is that one good moment and and i smile, then i feel like an asshole for being all depressed. Giselle lives close to me now, so it's awesome. but she's at her grandma's for like 5 days. now i feel like i'm in this cage, and it's getting harder to breathe, and all i can do is accept that i am not going to make it. i don't know, maybe i am just being melodramatic. and i probably am. I am just scared and i don't know what to do. My sister is being an ass, i had a fight with her today. she wants to buy a dog and i know she can't afford it. i just don't know what to do, and i don't know who to talk to. i want to talk to giselle, but she is a judging person. there is so much i can't tell her. yet i trust her with alot of me. who can that be? i just don't know. i just can't write right now. i don't know whats wrong with me