i feel like crying. i'm losing everything that was important to me. everyone that was important to me. i don't know what to do. i really don't. i mean i can't force someone to care about me again. if they don't, they don't. i have to deal with it. but how? seriously? how can i deal with it? do i just continuing caring? hoping for the best? or do i say, fuck'em. i want to to say fuck'em. i really do. but i can't seem to let go. this relationships kept me breathing for so fucking long, and now it's gone. i'm unstable. i want to just fucking die, that will make them care. that will make them re-think how they fucking treated me. pieces of fuck. i have so much anger in my heart and i don't know what to do with it. im done with caring about it. im done with worrying. but i can't stop myself. i want so fucking bad not to feel. to just be. just go thru life without this constant feeling of rejection, hate, nothingless. i need someone. anyone out there? anyone to care. anyone to love. anyone to love me. anyone. I'm just a Beautiful Fucking Mess. I've got nothing, and i'm at my wits end. anyone there?