i hate christmas so much. it's a stupid holiday, which is a total waste of money. my family hasn't even gone shopping nor do we have that stupid tree up. i'm glad. it's fucking stupid. i found out my friend is an idiot yesterday. she's a total fuck cuz she took mushrooms and pot. and FUCK i hate her for what she's burdened me with. fucking asshole. she's just a stranger now. i am so angry today. everything is horrible and i just want to die my brother looked through the damn door and saw me cutting. bastard. why can't people just leave me alone. i did it cuz i was too stressed becuz of stupid christmas and stupid fuck-up friend. i hate everything. i am fucking so angry. and i don't know what to do. i don't know how to handle this shit. fuck fuck fuck what should i do? any advice? haha. like anyone reads this fucking shit