the concert was good. actually amazing. even though we had crappy seats. it was really good. i got a hoodie and bag. *yay! anyway, but now i'm fucking pissed off because someone had to ruin that. man i know i shouldn't like take this stuff personally, but i do. because that girl treats me better then she does sometimes, and i know this might start something and i'll probably be getting an email shortly after posting this, but seriously, does she think that i wouldn't see that? man that makes me sick. that's why i can't handle it here. there's too much of that. hate for no reason. simply no reason at all. i mean i have a reason for hating someone, but i am not going to do stuff like that. she knows what i'm talking about. i'm going to be gone. i swear..soon i will be. i will get a job this summer to make more money and then, i'm gone. who cares where i go. as long as it's as far away from this place as i can get. I'm not sure what i am going to do. i'm just sick and tired of doing everything. i'm seriously screaming out and no one can even see it. my mom said if i took all the pills, it'd be a waste of the 20$ pills. thanks mom, nice to know that i'm loved. the only people who understand me, live a million miles away, and i'm not sure if they even do. i'm fucked. i've missed way to much school, and shit, i know it. i simply don't care. My mom said she'll go to alberta alone. fine do it. if she comes back, i won't be here. i don't care where i go. i don't think they understand that. i seriously don't. i mean, they say, "where are you going to go?" i dont give a FUCK as long as it's as far away from these FUCKING people as i can get. the only person i'd feel bad about leaving is Scott. Simply because he treats me great most of the time, and he wouldn't understand why i had to leave. but he'll get over it, when he realizes that it's for the best. My mom said she wouldn't come looking for me. that's ok. i wouldn't want her too. Just erase me. Sweep me under the carpet. i'm cool with being the newest forgotten daughter. that's cool with me. well that's it for me. Another Knife in my hands, a stain that never comes off the sheets. clean me off. i'm so dirty babe. the kind of dirty, where the water never cleans off the clothes.