I'm in a horrible mood. this week and last was just hell. my sister and me got in a fight and her bf ripped me and my mom a new in an email. fucking jackass. anyway, so i bascially don't have a sister anymore. she picked the cock over family. she pretends like she cares about me but she doesn't. she told me she thinks i have post tramauic disorder. i hope not, well actually, i hope so, then that would explain why i'm so fucking crazy. then maybe i could go on some medication and forget everything. On new years, i went to my friend Diana's and we did shots. my first time. lmao. it was fun. we stayed up till like 8. then slept till 11 and then at 12 went home. This was the first week back to school, and i missed 2 days. first day i was sick. then i went, then i missed my bus and didn't feel like taking a god damn city bus. so yea. i have a test on mon, and then i have an essay which was due on friday to hand in and complete. Right now i'm fucking having an email fight with this fuck from my school. she must have her panties in a bunch or something, all i said was sure sure and she took it sarcastic, then i was like god its the internet, how do you know. and she went on about how i want sympathy from her. so then i was like fuck, i'm not the one who complains about my "friends" all the time, who wants sympathy, your deleted off my list. then she was like im not the only one, and being all sarcastic, so i was like fuck you. what you haven't talked to you r god brittney in a hour? fuck you. don't act so high and mighty, it doesn't suit you. now lets hope she doesn't reply. i'm seriously, so sick of these fucking rich snobs complaining and treating me like shit, when they have no fucking clue. UGH i hate them. My hands are cold today. it's fucking freezing. i have this meeting thing on monday at Galleria mall at 6 for this kids help phone thing. it's the stupidest meeting place ever. it really pisses me off to, cuz i only joined so me and my friend Giselle could do it, and she fucking bailed. I only have friends at school. no one calls me or wants to hang out with me outside of that. fucking whores. God i'm in a bitchy mood. thanks alot slut bag Kelsey. I'm starting to really not care about homework at all. i mean, fuck school, it's not like i will be able to afford college or universty. so what's the god damn point. i'm just going to waste away anyway. This whole entry was just me complaining. oh well. i like it. I guess it's betrayal that tortures this poet