well, march break has began. i hung out with giselle yesterday. it was fun. i wish things could be that way all the time. but they aran't. she's different around other people and it kills me. well enough about that. i got these tickets to go to this suicide website launch. Rick from much is going to be there, and Dallas Green from Alexisonfire too. i don't know what it is really. but i think it's going to be awesome. i hope so. i'd love to meet rick. he seems cool. i wonder what it is. i wish i had more information about it. oh well. i don't know what i am going to do this week. 2 of my friends have said we are going to get together, but i'm pretty much used to empty promises. i have been let down alot more then anyone even realises. it hurts so much. brittney is gone. i thought i'd be her friend for a long time. that was pure fucking bullshit. God, i'm so bitter. i hate everyone. i can't stand my friends sometimes. they are fakes. i'm the only one in my "group" who doesn't have a spiked belt and yet i'm the only one who is pure punk music lover. i know, you shouldn't grade yourself on that, i just know if i was skinnier, and richer, i could wear what i want to. but i can't, cuz i'm poor and fat. god, i'm such a faggot, who needs a bullet in their head. The singer from The Killers is hot. hes name is Brandon Flowers. lol. Random. let's see. i have to volunteer tomorrow @ the YMCA and like then i have a meeting @ 6-9/ i hope i don't have to stay that fucking long. cuz that's bullshit. 3 hours?! i mean, alright, the staff ppl go, but they get PAID to go. it's going to be some bullshit fucking shit. i should stop volunteering there. it's a waste of time. then again, it's the only thing i EVER do. so yeah. i remember when i used to be able to write so much. i used to write like 1000 words per entry. i don't even know what i wrote about. prolly shit. i rented the spongebob movie and the pauly shore is dead movie. both were wastes of time. i just wasn't in SPONGEBOB mood i guess. anyway. that's it. i might come back and add more. prolly not. Missing The Life I NEVER Had.