when i first wrote all of this, i was on the verge of tears. i wrote the whole thing, and then my computer froze up and i lost all of it. ive calmed down since then. wow. listening to my family scream at each other. something is seriously wrong with my brother. he is driving a wedge in between my family because he cant get what he wants. once he punched me in the mouth and almost knocked out one of my teeth because i wouldnt let him on the computer. but example: he is letting a pregnant stray cat die, he wont let us take it to the no kill shelter. he says that if we cant have the cat living in our house then it will just have to die. my parents are both highly allergic to cats, and my dogs would probably kill it, but that doesnt matter to him, because when he wants something right nor wrong nor people's feelings stand in his way. i wrote this today so here i sit holding back the tears hoping none of this will matter in a number of years you're only human, but that doesnt change the things you said im not unhappy under the smile, i just feel dead just another person i found out i couldnt trust my happiness rots and is covered in rust i thought you were different, but you are just like them all i see your smile as you watch me fall ah well. have a nice day, ill be alright, dont worry about me. an insane old man ruined my day today. he was rambling on about how he was in the army while i was sitting outside church with a few friends, and then he said and think about this. no one wants to buy a book that has already been read. that is why the ladies keep their knees together. i wont explain what that means any further. i know that the old man is crazy, but i looked down and realize that out of me and the two girls i was with, i was the only one that had chosen to sit "indian style"(is that what its called?)--the other two girls had their knees together. there is also another reason why it brings me pain-most of my good friends would know that one, and a lot of people that betrayed me know it also.
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brought to you by Quizilla i dunno what the fuck is up with that, i dont have a broken heart just because i dont trust many people doesnt mean that my heart is broken. have a nice day tomorow yall when you go to bed, sweet dreams love ya lots --becca