yeah, so my party last night went from horible to pretty good. i started out being a complete bitch, being mad at everyone for everything, and when i turned out the lights so i could dance wihtout feeling weird i got my head bit off by my dad because "he didnt want anyone to trip and get hurt." i wont say what it really meant. then, i was bored and i did something mean. everyone thinks my basement is haunted, so they get freaked out easily. so while all the lights were off i locked the basement door (which locks from upstairs, so we were locked down there) started screaming like someone was trying to kill me and sat back and watched everyone panic and run for the door and scream. a few people looked at me and screamed and said i looked like a death child in the dark or something. basically i was rolling on the floor laughing when my parents came running downstairs to see why everyone was screaming. i feel bad about this lol. i eventually got upset and took a long walk, and didnt come back for a while. i came back maybe a half hour later, my feet were completly numb (i dont really wear shoes much inside, and i left quickly). then i hid out in my room for a while and pouted while a few close friends tried to cheer me up. (i dont know what the fuck was up with me last night.) then i got over myself, and i danced so much, and it was very fun. and once the groups started mixing, then it was a very good party and everyone was talking and dancing and getting along. i slept till noon and still got only 2 and a half hours of sleep. i hate insomnia. im beginning to think that i contradict my username. i do not keep on dreaming, i barely dream at all, unless i am asleep. i was alone last night, as i always have been. i kissed no one at midnight. i hadnt drinken(too bad...guess ill have to go to someone elses party for that). i dream of him. but he wasnt there. he will never be there. maybe it is better not to dream. im thinking im a bit too obsessed with adding pictures to this diary and it is becomming a photo album and not a diary. so thats why im making another username that is totally for pictures. im gonna keep just writing in this one. when it is ready ill tell you.