i compare so many things to the movement of the ocean, but last night was one more thing that fits perfectly. everything/everyone around you is moving, swaying, like waves. until you give in and move with the ocean instead of standing ridgedly getting mad when people touch you and bump into you, you will have the shittiest time on earth. once you give in, its like you are swimming in the ocean, one with the ocean (one with the crowd) you just keep dancing even though you are being squished from all sides and pushed into other people, etc. that's when its fun, when you get that feeling of freedom. i didn't think of the ocean metaphor until i was pushed very very hard and fell down into the crowd, sitting on the ground while everyone pushed from all sides and stood up and danced all around me. things slowed down, the sound was warped and quieter than usual, things seemed to sway, until sarah grabbed my hand and pulled me up out of the crowd. more lost secrets. don't want to give myself away to EVERYONE, now do i? [social issues]