i made a new diary, it is illneverbgoodenuf, and it is only for pictures. due to the fact that i cant get more than like ten on there at one time, ill just post different ones every week, or when i get around to it. its snowing! woooo jeez louise. first day back and i an essay, a huge packet to fill out, and math problems. i just love school. next party: january 30th. ive been feeling stronger in my religion lately. i have no idea why. on the way home from springfeild yesterday, i saw a sign that said something like "love your babies, born and unborn Our Lady Guadelupe is for life." and i just felt this overwhelming love for everything and everyone. i felt like if a random stranger was about to get hit by a car, i would risk it and push them out of the way, because i loved them so much. i felt love for my family, my friends, the poor, the sick, babies, and old people. for everyone. but mostly for god, which i guess is normal, since God is in everyone. "Jesus said, "If your leaders say to you, 'Look, the (Father's) kingdom is in the sky.' then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, 'It is in the sea,' then the fish will precede you. Rather, the kingdom is within you and it is outside you." the feeling grew, and grew, and grew, until i started crying in the car. have you ever felt that? its like extreme happiness and love, until you feel like you will burst with happiness, but then on the edge you can feel that you arent good enough, that you arent good enough to have someone die for you. my new years resolution is to become a better christian so that i deserve to wear the cross around my neck. im not like imposing my views on anyone, i just hope everyone finds where they belong. i think i have. i gained weight over break. i think im going to go on the special k diet until i can happily wear tight pants again...and ill run some too