yeah, so i feel lovely. there are kleenexs all over the floor. and i dont seem to have enough of them. my sneezes just keep coming. and my throat hurts, and i had a really bad fever from about 3 yesterday until about four this morning, so my whole body still aches, but especially my lower back and my neck. i can't really sleep, because i feel this need to fidget. so yeah, thats why i havnt been at summer school for the last two days. i WILL be back tomorrow, no matter how shitty i'm feeling. and to top it off, my scalp is peeling quite badly. its disgusting. it looks like i have extra large dandruff or something. the tattoo is a no. i asked my mom again yesterday, and she said no, because my dad would be furious with her and blow up at her. and my parents are already kind of being driven apart by my grandma, so i dont want to do anything that could push them farther along that road to divorce. and besides, my mom does so much for me, and me and her have really gotten closer this summer. and i dont want her to get in trouble. she said there's a chance that i could get it for my sixteenth birthday instead. she says the reason that my dad doesnt want me to get one is because he thinks it makes girls look tough and hard or something. i disagree with that, because it would be a very small tattoo, but whatever. gah, my fever is back. :( ______________________________________ wtf. "Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your child may have gone astray from the Lord. Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child: -Frequently wears black clothing. -Wears band and/or rock t-shirts. -Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish. -Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols. -Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos. -Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.) -Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically. -Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports. -Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan. -Takes drugs. -Drinks alcohol. -Is suicidal and/or depressed. -Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.) -Complains of boredom. -Sleeps too excessively or too little. -Is excessively awake during the night. -Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.) -Demands an unusual amount of privacy. -Spends large amounts of time alone. -Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.) -Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult. -Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this. -Misbehaves at school. -Misbehaves at home. -Eats excessively or too little. -Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this. -Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.) -Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.) -Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature. -Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer. -Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music. -Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner. -Expresses an interest in sex. -&@$%&#$@%es -Is homosexual and/or bisexual. -Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism. -Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth". -Claims to be a goth. If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center. ~St. Mary's Catholic Church " what the fuck. eating count dracula cereal? spending time alone? homosexual/bisexual? COMPLAINS OF BOREDOM? well, i guess anyone that has a quirk or something different about them is going to hell. according to that, at least.i guess we're all supposed to be sheep. i got this off of someone elses diary, who got it off someone else's diary. but after doing a search, it seems to be all over the place on the internet. _____________________________ ahh. courtney and kelsey are at the pool, and i have to stay home since im sick. so i am amusing myself by listening to phantom of opera music and making a buddypic collage. and being too shy to actually put it up on the site, because im stupid like that.