yesterday's story: so, usually wake up every hour and a half or so unless i am dead tired. yes, i am aware that is probably some kind of sleep disorder, and i dont care, because its been happening to me since i was little and im used to it and i like it. it probably grew from growing paranoia about the child catcher from chitty chitty bang bang or aliens or such when i was little. anyway, i woke up at 730 or 8 in the morning, and then it all came back to me....the party, drinking, HIM. how much fun i had. and i couldnt stop smiling and i couldnt breathe and so i just walked outside and sat on my patio and smelled the fresh air and listened to the birds sing. i love having my house back to the woods. after who knows how long, i went inside just to get my camera, and then courtney and kelsey and cole came out. and we talked until it got too hot. and then someone ate. i cant remember who. and after kelsey left i layed around and waited. but it never happened. and then i got ready and me court and kels went to the st pauls carnival thing there. there was this one guy...he was all alone, cute in a edward scissor hands kind of way. kelsey and courtney said that me and him had the same eyes. it was weird. but anyways, wherever we went, there he was. turn around and he's there. we felt bad for him, because he was all alone, but i was too shy to say anything, and they were caught up in landon and conley. i started seeing everything in this really dark way. it was weird. what i gained from last night: $14 some hella good photographs.