how sad is it to remember past guys by nevermind. its too sad. last night was fun, i spent the night at kelseys house. theres something weird with her dining room, there is a cold spot on the floor. its always cold in her dining room. then, today me and courtney and kelsey went ot nathan's demolay basketball game. it was fun. im glad they went. im feeling oddly calm lately. its a content numbness. too content to be apathy. im just me. and the world is just the world, and people just suck. and ive come to terms with everything, and its all good. *now that we're here its so far away and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive and im not ashamed to be the person that i am today* i wanna get my toenails french tipped for valentines day. haha. i hate feeling like an ass.