and if you ever find a moment, spare a thought for me ____________________________________ last night was fun. went to bluebird park with kelsey. the fireworks were beautiful. i had a few stupid moments, but its ok. im so very confused. i like someone who lives thousands of miles away from me. we randomly started talking, and totally clicked, just like that. but england seems a lifetime away from here. and its most likely that i will never meet him. ah well. i want a car. just a random statement. i hate 15. its so damn middle. i have a very large bugbite on my elbow from last night. i thought it was a mousquito bite, but im thinking maybe its 4 mousquito bites. strange. _______________________________ my passport is valid for five years. if i can get the hell away from here within that time period, maybe i have a chance at freedom. and then comes...renouncing my citizenship. which feels like it shall be very sad. which means that in order to come back i would have to get a passport. and get permission of two governments. just to see my family and all my highschool friends. and that means that i will only have a few years of college schooling before leaving? i want to be able to get a decent job wherever in europe i move, and i am aware that an american education is quite inferior to a european education. so im not sure what will happen there. its a very large and important, and PERMANENT decision to make, so i plan to think about it a lot before deciding whether or not i truly want to start saving up, or if i shall stay in the states. ______________________________ im getting a perm friday. im getting loose, large curls, but its funny because its going to take a week for them to get that way, and until then, they are going to be quite tight. so im a bit nervous. _____________________________ i am obsessed with michelle by the beatles. WHY CANT I HAVE LIVED IN THE 60S. _____________________________________ strange question...no, nevermind. its not a fair question, not a fair question at all. __________________________________________ thirteen random things you like 1: learning 2: that "free" feeling i get when im out with my friends 3: being outside 4: night 5: rain 6: eyes 7: photography 8: the phantom of the opera 9: dreaming 10: the 60s-70s time period 11: traveling 12: music 13: thought provoking things twelve good movies 1: cruel intentions 2: the dead poet's society 3: donnie darko 4: big fish 5: edward scissorhands 6: the breakfast club 7: the matrix 8: when a stranger calls 9: mona lisa smile 10: van helsing 11: texas chainsaw massacre 12: sixteen candles eleven good bands/artists 1: korn 2: adema 3: weezer 4: 311 5: andrew lloyd webber (composer) 6: danny elfman (composer) 7: THE BEATLES 8: the used 9: erm...lets do songs for the rest of this. stairway to heaven by led zeppelin. 10: california dreamin by the mamas and the papas 11: incense and peppermints by strawberry alarm clock ten things about you physically 1: brown hair 2: brown eyes 3: long hair, soon to be curly 4: 5'5 5: shoe size 7 1/2 6: 5 piercings (all ears) 7: long nails and toenails (i dont cut them. they wear off by themselves) 8: many scars, esp on feet. i go barefoot. and when i dont, i get lots of blisters because i wear sandals. 9: a sprinkle of freckles across the higher part of my cheeks/nose 10: my hair shall get longer. and longer. because im growing it out. nine good friends 1: kelsey 2: courtney 3: kait 4: cole 5: alek 6: sare 7: alex 8: madeline 9: kelsey i seem to have lost many of the friends that i made over the course of the last year. this saddens me immensely. eight favorite foods/ drinks 1: milkshakes 2: pizza 3: tacos 4: cheese bagels 5: almost anything else with cheese 6: stuffed penne 7: french fries 8: strawberry flavored carbonated water seven things you wear daily 1: watch 2: barefoot or sandals 3: underwear, der. 4: numerous necklaces and bracelets 5: my hair down 6: usually eyeliner 7: some kind of hemp/rope ankle bracelets six things that annoy you 1: viruses 2: different members of my family 3: when circumstances make things impossible 4: this country, i suppose. especially the education system. 5: WHEN PEOPLE ARE BLIND AND THEY CANT SEE WHAT IS SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. 6: ignorance. not being able to see the gray. when people think things are all in black and white. when people dont respect life. oh wow, i better just stop before i get going even more. when people have no idea what they are talking about yet they continue to talk about it anyway. when people act stupid to try to get people to like them. five things you touch everyday 1: some book 2: i pet my dogs every day. 3: some kind of eating utensil 4: my hairbrush 5: every morning i end up having to wake up and pull my shade down in a half daze because the sun shines right in on my face while im sleeping. four shows you watch 1: eh, i dont really watch tv. ill try to think of the shows that i end up watching the most. CMT IS ALWAYS ON AT MY HOUSE NOW THAT MY GMA IS HERE. and i LOVE it, since i dont like country music. 2: law and order 3: mtv at other peoples houses since my parents are worried about the decay of moral values in american society and assume that my brother and i have virgin ears, thus blocked mtv so as not to further corrupt us 4: the news. three people you have a crush on 1: ok, well this is dumb but im doing it anyway. ****** 2: hmmm 3: sort of that english guy, even though its stupid to two things you hate 1: see number 6 of six things that annoy you 2: restrictions. when im not in control of my life. one thing you love 1: life. my friends. oops, thats two. so sue me.