i wish upon stars for you. for anything. i wish upon stars for me too. that you will be wishing for me too. I am not: like you, even if i seem to be. I hurt: behind my smile. I love: my friends, myself. I hate: humanity in general. I fear: monotony, numbness, apathy. i fear that things are the way my mind percieves them to be...and i also fear that my mind percieves them wrong. I hope: that the future will be better. I hear: things you probably think i don't hear. i hear when you whisper that no one, except yourself, is supposed to hear. I crave: your touch. I regret: when i regret things. I cry: because i don't matter to you. I care: because there is something about you that makes me. I always: assume its a worse case scenario. I long to: sponaneously leave here. I feel alone: because i AM alone. we all are. I listen: to depressing music. I hide: from reality, from my feelings. I drive: myself crazy. I sing: because music is a part of me. I dance: at mixers. I write: when i feel about to burst. I breathe: because you suffocate me. I play: in ways other people don't understand. barely ever. I miss: that ride. I search: for the truth. I learn: always. I feel: apathetic often. I know: only change is constant. I say: what i mean. i dont say what i fear might be true. I succeed: almost never. I fail: often. I dream: as if it was necessary for me to live. I sleep: To escape this world. I wonder: what he thinks of me. what things were like 40 years ago. I want: to know the answers, to know the truth...to break the barrier. i want to understand. I worry: way too much. ive been told by more than one person that i should try smoking pot, because i get so worked up worrying. I have: mental baggage. I would give: the moon and the stars. I fight: verbally. I wait: like its killing me. I need: change. I am: a dreamer, an idealist, and a realist, all at the same time. I think: too much. I can't help the fact that: i feel so hopeless all the time. I stay: because i fear what would happen if i left.