i spent the night at courts's friday, and stayed at her house pretty much all day saturday. we took lots of walks on saturday. she curled my hair, it looks soooo good. she thinks i should get a perm, and if i was for sure that it would turn out like this, i would. but im not, so i wont. yet. we walked to burger king. that was fun. some old guy asked us if we wanted a ride (me courtney and kelsey) then we all walked to HIS HOUSE. it isnt grey, it is MAROON, silly girl. although i did not recognize his motor vehicle, i recognized his house. for an agonizing few minutes, we waited a few houses down the street, debating whether or not to keep going. i said no, and gave up. so....yes. i have given up. no more caring about when he looks right through me. none at all. i keep thinking about him. not HIM, him. the more i find out about him, the better me and him seem to go. but, no, i dont like him. i could never do that. _________________________________________ i have reoccuring dreams about a book. well, not ABOUT the book, but the book seems to be in every single dream i have lately, as just a footnote. i didnt realize it until i told myself i should start reading it and then realized that i dont actually have it. it is the complete works of edgar allan poe. and with a very teenager like cover that looks oddly like the teen bible that i used to have. so what does THAT mean? that macabre is my bible? haha i do kind of admire him.