cause its always rainin in my head... forget all the things i should have said alright, well im doin that thing with the putting things from an old diary on one of my diaries. its on thestarthtfell. just to tell ya. _______________________________ everyone feels like following him, no matter how into not following anyone they are. but you see, the fact that we all want to follow him makes us less than him. dont forget that. i used to dream of him, you know. ages ago. im a crazy person. im sitting here with the window open and shorts and a t-shirt on. yep. lets pretend its hawaii... well great. cause you know, i just love losing things that are irreplacable. im sad again tonight. because this is the first schoolnight where i dont get to stay online all hours and talk to him. am i obsessed? or maybe in love? ______________________________ i am so fucking tired. i have been since friday or so, all i want to do is lay around by myself. pleeeaaase dont make me go to school tomorrow... i just want to curl up under my covers with it raining, in the dark, reading an awesome new novel by candlelight. and no school. do you have the time, to listen to me whine... awesome song. i miss my evanescence cd dearly. i have no idea where it went/who stole it. ahhhh, why dont they have cd insurance. ________________________________________ well, im sorry. i didnt think i could sit and listen to you guys talk about all the guys you met and how much fun you had and come out in one piece. so instead, i went up to my room, turned on weezer real quiet, lit the vianney candle, layed down on my bed with my head by the open window and watched the rain. it was relaxing. and helped me get my thoughts in order. i just couldnt stant to be around other people. ____________________________ ahem, me and sarah are cool, having deep conversations and reminiscing on old diaries. annnddd i just realized what im doing, yes. im waiting for him to get on. *SMACK* stop it becca, stop it, you are torturing yourself. go to bed and get some much needed sleep. its a new quarter.