i hate finding out im being controlled more than i realize. trust me, it didnt go over well. i officially do not trust both my parents, AGAIN. ok, giving up my secret here. he goes to our school, friend does. he is friends with mitch evers. he sits at the first table on the left in the tiled hallway with the vending machines. he has brown hair, and blue eyes (i think) and i dont know him. but his name is james. (jimmy?) i just thought id tell ya. ill be back in a few, im gonna go take a showa. dont tell anyone...k? i feel like a dorkus. i dont even know the guy (trust me....there are like 0234803948 others too. i dont know what is wrong with me lately. its like any guy that looks at me suddenly i like him. its pathetic. somebody smack me. im trying to stop be this way.) there is a hacker in my computer. it just did that thing like it does at school when they are looking at your computer from another computer...where the window gets small and bigger without you doing anything... im scared. why didnt the firewall block this one? im fucking being torn into a million pieces, stretched beyond my limits. i need it to be summer, but then, do i really? summer when i will be a prisoner in my own home if my parents see it fit? who wants to run away to florida with me over the summer? and sarah, if they arent hiring anymore, im screwed. i need a job, i wish i wasnt such a fucking procrastinator. i hate everything right now.