someday when i drive i want to get so damn drunk that i spend the night in my car in some random person's driveway until they tell me to leave so i puke in their driveway and then drive off. but not home. hell no, would i drive home. why go home? there's a million places to go. i want to explore the roads that nobody knows about. i want to find the magical spots, the romantic spots, the beautiful spots that havnt given in to comercialization and housing developments. don't say you understand how addictive it is. i don't, even, fully. but i want more. i want a spur of the moment road trip. unfourtunately if i did that now, it would ruin my life, since i dont have a liscence and all. but wait...IF i got caught. IF. i hate ifs. what if... what if we all die tomorrow? im rambling. who can see my add on the website? raise your hand like a good child. i fucking hate everything right now. ________________________________________ i wish you would step back from that ledge my friend you could cut ties with all the lies that youve been livin in and if you do not want to see me again i would understand...i would understand... __________________________________________ i have had a headache since 11 on wednesday night.