i walked away, heard them say poisoned hearts will never change i feel like im dying ... i smell like smoke once again. i think its only a matter of time before my parents search my room or something of the sort. there must have been a lot, because it smelled like that outside my house all over the place yesterday too. the smell, makes me sick to my stomach. i have the worst stomach ache, this always happens. its on me, like a stain. even if i take a shower, my hair still smells like rose smoke, or lilac smoke, or jasmine smoke. OUT, damn spot! maybe ill live in new orleans when im older if i dont get that house i want. i mean, id fit in. ahhh, get the smell awayyyyy... well, i have officially 10+ hours of homework today. so im going to regret being on the computer right now later. every night, i dream of you.... every night. saw havana nights last night. loved it, i just hate the ending. because no matter what they think, they wont be getting back together, he will meet a nice cuban girl, and she will go off to college and meet some harvard-schooled lawyer. and they will forget about the love of their lives. i actually cried over that movie, a first in months. ive become very emotional. overemotional. i hope that ends up alright. and i hope i see you today or tomorrow... cum on feel the noise girls rock your boys we'll get wild wild wild wild wild wild im reading this book about palmistry, its interesting. you could say that the lines on the palms of our hands are only there from bending them, but the life line appears bold and clear on an embryo's hand at age 8 weeks, which is before it is able to move. you should really listen to the song "atomic" by blondie. if you have the game GTA vice city, youve already heard it. uh uh make me tonight tonight make it right uh huh, make it magnificent tonight, right and im craving my nathan