everyone is sick. my cousin is 18 and already might not be able to have kids. my aunt is 36 and has possibly deadly cancer. kait is home sick. i hope everyone gets better...ill pray for everyone. im going on this retreat with my mom and my gma in spring, it is to a convent, i cant wait. it sounds like something where i will get a lot closer to god. its on this huge plot of land with big trees and lots of places to take walks and think. everyone gets their own little room, and there is mass once or twice a day, and sometimes meals are silent, so that you can think. does anyone want to come with me? kait i know you are lol. and there is also a teen one, that should be fun, but im not going unless i can get a few people to come. tell me if you want to come, it costs money but i dont think it costs much. the teen one might be about having fun, but if you come with me to the womens one, be prepared to be serious. its not some oh lets run around and have fun and scream retreat. its all about getting closer to god. or being a better christian, and learning more about god, so if those arent your motives you probably shouldnt come. ly becca ___________________ i wrote a new poem. its not the best but oh well. the emptiness inside burns a hole through me red embers make my life smoky and make it hard to see someday it will burn all my walls away only then you will see that i dont know the way my life is a vast forest and i am a lost little girl who hides away her pain and keeps it from the world the forest is burning down its burning to the ground you better say goodbye i hope that i get out alive but i cant find my way i cant get away... the end kind of doesnt go. oh well