What do you want?

Listening to: Ozzy-I Just Want You
Feeling: independent
Is it a fight that you want? If you want it, you got it. I don't care. What am I losing? A friend that never talks to me, and never wants to do anything with me. I'm not in a passive mood. That said, do what you want. ________________________________________ Had a red robin milkshake tonight, and talked over contemporary issues with my parents. It was an adult conversation, in their opinion, and they asked how many kids I thought talked about politics and war with their parents. I had never thought about it before. Either way, I enjoyed the conversation. It is nice to be accepted for the age of your mind and not that of your body for once. Tomorrow's plans: *clean hamster cage *clean room *aleks coming over during the day? *hopefully doing something with nathan *work on the blanket *read A Brief History of Time (at least start it) It sounds horribly long but it doesn't look more than 150 pages. maybe 200. I won't read the whole thing tomorrow, of course, but I started it today, and it is very interesting. Like a theory that if it all started with a big bang, that the energy traveling outward will eventually stop growing outward and travel back the way it came. During this time, time could go backwards, people could grow younger instead of older, etc. i probably didnt word that right, but aleksandra knows what im talking about. I think I will have a random thought for every entry from now on. Random thought: I have come to the conclusion that I am horrible at sewing and I probably will never get any better. Ugh. I can't sew, cook, iron, or wash clothes. I better learn. No one is going to want to marry me. Not to mention, I won't survive through college. Well, goodnight everyone. I hope you have wonderful dreams.
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wow i so know how you feel i just had to go throught that with one of my friends and it sucks
Your right it wasnt an april fools joke.. but everyone seems to think that life is one big april fools joke and I called them on it but most cant see what I write because all they want to see is pretty things. So to them my words are no more than childish drawings of hope.
yeah, i mean if she doesnt want to do anything with you now, what are you really losing? yesm i will come over. and the big bang ooposite thing...very cool theory. since time will go backwards...will people die [starting out in life from death, rather from birth] and then be born [ending life from birth, rather than death]? if that made any sense lol. very confuddeling.
I am a fellow tarot enthusiast. perhaps we could do each others readings one day.
[Anonymous]
becca, that whole entry was not about u. there r other people who have been makin me upset. i wouldnt have gotten that upset about something as small as one diary entry. i do still want to be your friend. ive just been really busy lately and i havent really done much with ne of my friends. i hope that even tho we sometimes see things differently that we can make this friendship work. i dont want anyone mad at me. ill ttyl. lyl-nicole
[Anonymous]
i would still like to b friends.i dont really have much time to spend with my other friends right now either.i wish i had more time.im not saying that i dont want to do stuff with u.i dont mean that to my other friends either.i havent done ne thing with aryn and logan for like a month and they r my best friends.i feel really bad about that.i just havent had energy to go out lately.i guess it will b a good thing to go out tonight.u r welcome to..
[Anonymous]
..come still.sometimes i just feel like im not good enough for some of my friends and so i back away.that is kind of what happened.idk y i felt that way but i did.im sry for that.but then again im not going to beg for ur friendship.i want to be friends but if i dont matter that much then idk what to do.its in ur ballpark now.u can decide what u want to do.and yes the phone works both ways.ill ttyl hopefully-nicole
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