i never realized until thinking about those last two entries (after i had not taken them) how dependent i am becomming on anti-depressants. that said, today started out nice, and got increasingly horible as the day went on. and im always so cold. i wrote some bad poetry last night. i dont even remember what it is about. you got to those entries before i could delete them. as soon as i had sleep i had hoped you wouldnt see them. oh well. SOH CAH TOA its not that hard, actually. somehow im getting this sine cosine tangeant stuff. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ i want my room to have a computer with the internet on it and a small tv with built in dvd player. and a small refridgerator. maybe my parents will give me this computer in a year or two when we probably get a new one (its over two years old right now) this way, i never have to leave my room and see other people unless i want to. and oh, how i want to stay in there. im too afraid to look at the stupid poetry i wrote. if its good, maybe ill "forget" and not take the stuff every now and then for some inspiration. ______________ owwwwiiieee.... tummy ache...not cool... ______________________________ I really think you are being a stupid self obsessed thing blah blah i dislike you already [anonymous (159.134.54.233)] well, since i dont know you, and you dont know me, i really dont give a fuck if you dislike me. since you feel the need to let people that you will never meet know that you dont like them, i guess you might want to know that you dont sound like the nicest person in the world. definitely a coward for not signing your name. i have friends who love me. so frankly, i could care less what some anonymous person thinks. at least i dont go around being mean to people i dont even know, and therefor have no right to judge. __________ the stuff i wrote last night was hilarious. me and aleksandra got a large laugh out of some of it. ill show you the sunset on the night i almost burned my house down. the variations are with different flashes. the colors were not as bright as some of these, but it was still very beautiful. the first three are taken from the ground and that one is from my room, me hanging out the window hoping that my neighbor that is a nurse wont see me and yell at me to get down if that last one is too dark to see, then i guess my computer screen is brighter than yours. and i remember once i put a picture of a small fraction of my neighborhodd on another diary i have, and someone asked if it was my town, hehe, no. just a small part of a small neighborhood in a small suburb of a big city known as st louis.