im really getting excited to leave. things seem to be getting dramatic. ahem. kelsey needs to come back. right now. im really tired...and its only 11 15...impossible... ive only been up 9 hours. i dont know how im tired. only five more days and im out of here. and then school starts. yay...i guess. i just hope this year will be better than last year. not saying last year was bad, just hoping next year will be better. i just downloaded those few old deftones songs that i used to love, and i remember how much they affect me now. they give me chills, almost make me cry, they make me want to be that girl you chase through the still night in a dark forest, that runs softly, laughing because you cant catch her, the one who dissapears before your eyes. the bird doesnt love me anymore. i havnt seen it in days. that pretty little green bird that would come to the window in whatever room i was in and look in on me curiously, and sing. i hope it didnt die...