today completely sucked. i need to cry. so im going to go lay on the ground in the rain, and hope i get sick. i got up my courage today. and i talked to him. it was a short conversation, but i was friendly and confident. i hope he goes the same way tomorrow. today never has to happen today. and maybe tomorrow will be better. im wearing JEANS tomorrow! i know i sound like some retarted girl who is obsessed with clothing and whatnot, but it actually is a big deal...i never owned a pair of jeans until a few days ago, not this year at least. no one has seen me wear them to school, ever. i used to eat my troubles away (thus why i am a seven now and no longer a five) to try to fill the emptiness inside me. but im never hungry anymore. your voice is my sustenance. wow, sappy. goodnight everyone. sweet dreams.