drama drama drama. ____________________________________ well, anyways. i kept remembering how much i missed this winter last night. i think it hit me, almost, that its never, ever, going to happen again. and its very sad. no more speeding around aimlessly with friends, looking at christmas lights when we are all close to an hour late, no more of That Group. you know, the one with me kelsey jake courtney jake and jeremiah. ive done some horrible things in my day, especially to him, and i feel horrible about it. dammit...we always took everything so for granted. i used to feel like i was part of something, some closeknit group of friends, i had something to do on wednesday nights, i was strong in my faith, and even though things were sometimes dramatic, and we all had our sort of problems, i never felt so free as those nights speeding around kirkwood/webster, risking things, having fun. never. _____________________________________ i had a strange dream last night, where i had a revalation that i need to stop taking things for granted and live life to its fullest! and not be so fucking shy anymore. and remember the good times... ____________________________________ im thinking about getting a xanga. ______________________________________ i met someone. well, sort of.