wow. i took a break from my onlining/homeworkdoing to check in on my family on what they were doing. they are setting up our Christmas tree, putting the lights and ornaments on it. The Christmas tree that they didnt bother to wake me up to go get, even though i asked them to. they looked so perfect. i had the odd sensation that i was watching one of those cheesy movies where everything is "swell". they looked so happy without me with them. i think their heads are so full of Christmas music that they forgot about me. merry future christmas all. ly me