Ok, so not only does my permit picture look like a mugshot, but they put that my height is 5'0 1/2", and i didnt notice it. um, i said 5'5 1/2". but thats cool. I drove the first time today. w00t. It wasn't too bad. My mom wasnt scared except for once when i was turning too fast and almost flipped the car into the woods. Overall, I'd say I am having a pretty good day. And someday, in like a year, I am going to be able to drive as good as NATHAN!! mwahhhahhha When I get married, I am going to walk down the aisle to "dreamer" by ozzy osbourne. That song describes my feelings about the world PERFECTLY. Gazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime Afterall there's only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself Time after time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days I watch the sun go down like every one of us I'm hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those who will come after us This time I'm just a dreamer I dream my life away I'm just a dreamer Who dreams of better days Your higher power may be god or jesus christ It doesn't really matter much to me Without each other's help there ain't no hope for us I'm living in a dream of fantasy If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate, and biggotry be gone?... __________________________ No one cares about me. If I died, no one would care. No one would notice that I was gone. I hate myself. I hate my life. Oh sweet sorrow. Oh, The Agony! I'm going to go get fucked up on some kind of drug and try to drive. I'll show them. Oh, The JOY of sick jokes! ok, so the above portion is all what it seems like people right now think i am like. i dont need to be repeatedly reassured that im loved. im not depressed and unstable. the more you tell me you love me, the more empty your words are. i mean, ok. 4 times in one day, when we havnt even had a conversation? yeah. that's love. i don't even know what's going on in your lives, and you don't know what i'm like on the inside anymore. gawd people. hypocrisy. How many more times am I going to be wrong until it happens to you? and then suddenly i was right all along? ______________________________________ I think it is funny that the tarot cards I got were tarot of the saints, hoping they wouldn't anger god, and im not even christian anymore. so it feels weird using tarot of the saints. just a random thought.