well, my grandmother is hearing voices again. so who knows whats going to happen. becuase my aunts dont want her back, she drives them crazy too. and no one has enough money to put her in a home. and i need my college money!!! gah. im going to start doing chores around the house or something. i mean, i really, REALLY need to start saving for all these things. 1. car. but that one, i dont care as much about as the other two. 2. college, hopefully in a different country which i realize is doubtful 3.PLANE TICKET OUT OF THIS COUNTRY. i got five years, baby. well, probably longer than that, if i can get my passport renewed, but thats just more money i have to save for... a connection like that does crazy things. yeah, i realize ill probably never meet him. but i dont underestimate the importance for anything. and i believe that everything happens for a reason. so. and just because you are wrong doesnt make me fucking weird. ___________________________________ i need to get my feet back on the ground and my head out of the clouds. that dandelion looks horrible there. im not sure what to put there instead. its just, like, BAH!!! out of nowhere. because the background is light and it doenst go with my diary. _____________________________ Listening to: Poprocks and Coke-Green Day i prefer to wear my watch backwards. as in, the face of it is on my inner wrist. does anyone else wear their watch like this? or am i just a strange little child?