its weird...i feel nothing, not even apathy. i feel like something was taken from me, and all i feel is its absence...its kind of making me nervous, because i cant accuratly describe the feeling and i dont know what it is... the last two days were horrible looking back on them. i felt so trapped that when i think back it makes me feel sick. for real. it reminds me of way back when when i always felt so trapped and it made me feel sick...and i dont want to think about what was going on back then. that was about a year ago for all you who jumped to the gulf shores thing. this feeling is smothering me like i am in a cage. i hate this feeling. i am a lil claustrophobic, and this is the feeling i get when i go under my bed and i am about to panic... i narrowly avoided a HUGE embaressing moment today at school...it would have been bad. and i mean BAD. i wont state it on here. anyways..ill update this entry later. bye.