This is akward and unkind. the swelling.. needs to go down.

Something is so sick about this...My Misery is addictive..

The empty words the what ifs. Should i stop and just listen?

Or lash out becuase i cant handle this.

Do i give you the time and space. when you and her go there. and here. you have a child ami just over Acting. only beacuse you have shown me that you do candy coat and choose what to say to me. the fact that i know and you know. but what you tell me is different, this all might be simple. and worthless to you. but the moral fact is your dont think you need to tell me.

Days it feels like im just your friend some to avoid the truth

The body next to me.

isn't the one i want isn't the one who id love.

And please takea moment with me here inhale. and think back to when we both were free. and when i watch you. all your everythings. have run thin, and i look at something more interesteading. and i almost have a pity for you. but the one that is sick and sad is me. im still with you....