Dear Diary, This is a COMPLETE change of subject from my last entry about two minutes ago, but I've just got to get this question out of my head. Does anyone else ever feel like that? I've got to get my thoughts on paper so I can beat them, twist them, polish them, push them, pull them, and pretty much exhaust them so they'll stop running around my head. Anyway... Tangent. My question: Is there something wrong with me? Do I exert this negative magnetic field that forces people to push away from me? From minor aquaintances to my best friend, it seems like no one wants to be around me anymore... I don't have a single person who will just listen to whatever I feel like spewing whenever I need to... Of course, I guess that's why I'm on this place. The people I know who I used to be fairly close to seem like they're pulling away. *Tamika. *Melinda. Even *Hannah. I don't know why. They just talk to me less... Care less... Listen less... Did I do something wrong? Is it because I stopped coming to school for awhile? Sigh. If only they knew the true reasons... But they never will. No one will, because they won't ask. Well, my mom asks, but she's my mom. She HAS to ask why I won't--CAN'T--go to school. And what's with *Celina? She's my best friend... But even she won't try to talk about the REAL reasons I'm away from school. Of course, that doesn't surprise me. She does whatever she can to get out of talking to me AT ALL. I mean, beyond the superficial stuff. I just wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who CARED. And, I know this is asking a lot, but someone who understood... Diary, I know it doesn't look like it to most the world, but my life is HARD. Love, Lisa Ann *Names have been changed to protect the innocent. ;)