Dear Diary, Well, it was stupid to get my hopes up about dating. It's Friday night. I'm not going on any dates. I should probably give it more time, but I just doubt I'm ever gonna go on a date any time soon... I saw Pride and Prejudice for the third time tonight. It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. Best movie ever. Seriously my favorite. But also kind of melencholy, because... because I don't have a Mr. Darcy. I kept thinking about how it felt to be hugged (and loved) by that boy, and it was so sad... I don't know why I'm so focused on boys right now. I just wish I had some around. Or just one. One would be nice... My brother has a girlfriend sorta now. He's been off his mission... Three weeks? Almost a month. And he has a girlfriend. I'm sixteen and a half, and I've been on four dates. Three with one guy, one with another. That just seems pathetic to me. Is it? I don't know. Some girls haven't been on ANY dates, so I guess I shouldn't complain. But it's just that (and I don't mean to be...vain... or whatever) people tell me that I'm pretty, and I really think I can be (if I'm not having my usual "grunge days"). And I'm a nice, fun/funny girl. So why don't guys like me??? Sigh. My dad came home from another business trip today, and this time he actually brought me a present! I ask him every time, but he hasn't since 9th grade. And actually, the only reason he did this time was because he was gone over my mom's b-day, so he bought some presents for her in chicago. ANYway. He bought me a cheap little mini-radio player, and I LOVE it. I love listening to the radio. Yay! Okay. So. Yeah. Whatev. I'm kinda bummed about the whole no guy thing, but I'll get over it, right? Eh. yeah, sure, I'll get over it when I'm married. ;) I went to see P&P with Teri Ann and Cassie. I love Teri Ann. Cassie... I noticed Cassie only calls me when she's bored and wants to do something. Yeah. That kind of sucks. But whatever. She can't be bothered, I guess, during the week. Teri Ann called me this week just to chat. But I guess I shouldn't compare them. So what if the one who ISN'T my "best friend" is nicer to me? I shouldn't care. But I SHOULD automatically love Cassie when I see her once a week. Whatever. She makes me mad and she doesn't even know it. SO! MY LAST ENTRY IS ALL ABOUT HOW I LOST THIS ENTRY. GUESS WHAT! I DIDN'T! SO I GUESS I HAVE A SUMMARY OF THIS ENTRY NOW! I can't decide if i'm happy or angry about that... Oh well! Love, Lisa Ann