Once it was Different "I shake with the pounding of my pulse Walking towards him, I arrange my face to smile He pulls me in for a quick hug And in that moment in his arms I remember the past When a hug like this meant so much more When a hug wasn't given from duty But from the heart We say goodbye, he'll see me later And I stumble away as my smile shatters My tear-filled eyes close with longing Knowing the careful distance he places between us Might never be closed And as he goes on with his well-planned life I whisper to myself Once it was different" by Lisa Ann Dear Diary, Okay, I SWEAR this is my last time I'm going to lament over him. I might not be able to stop thinking about him, but I CAN stop writing about him. So I'll only write about him when something has actually HAPPENED or I've at least seen him. I just need something to distract me from being distracted by him. But what?? Hmm... I have no idea. I think the reason I can't get over it is because I still have no idea what happened between us. One day everything was going great and the next it was over. The only explanation I ever got from him was that he thought it was best if we just "stayed friends." What did I do??? Love, Lisa Ann