Dear Diary, Eric's girlfriend broke up with him. He came to my house last night to tell me. But I was out with Jessie. So Jessie and I stopped by his house, and he was heading out the door with Billy. We all went to Lee's, and he told me in the checkout line. I didn't know what to say, how to act. Jessie and I walked away for a minute and I was kind of freaking out. We all went outside and stood by his truck. I tried to talk to him about it, and he told me a little... but I think it was awkward for him to have Jessie there or something... whatever the reason, he abruptly decided that they were leaving. I said okay, then got in my car and sped away. I was a little bit mad... I almost started to cry on the way home. I'm just so confused. I don't know if I should be happy or excited or scared. I was so ready to stop liking him... and then this happens... and I don't know how I feel. Eric MAY like me. But I don't want to be the rebound girl. I don't want him to treat me like crap---and I'm really afraid that that's what will happen. And at the same time... I want him to like me... and I want to like him... I just... am so confused. Also, Eric's got to be feeling terrible right now. What do I do about that? It's all so complicated. Andy and I texted for over an hour yesterday. It was actually pretty fun/exciting...... Oh, but Eric probably thinks I like Andy. Because (before I found out about the break-up) I told him how excited I was about Andy calling me, and I was texting him a little... So that may have screwed things up even more. Because I do like Andy... just not so much like that... not the way I like(d?) Eric.... I want to go back to sleep. I don't want to go to church today. I don't even want to fast. Isn't that terrible? I'm just so depressed... Love, Lisa Ann