Dear Diary, I'm doing better today. Not so freaked out about it. I talked to Loren and... Well it's a long story. But he feels stupid, I feel stupid, and we're really not sure what to do. He's going to call me when I get back from New York and... well, I'm not trying to be harsh, but I'm kinda hoping he'll have decided he doesn't like me. I know what happened yesterday was... a big thing, but... I just... I thought I'd finally got things figured out in my life, especially in the boy department, and this happens and I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I AM OFF TO NEW YORK, PEOPLES! MY PLANE LEAVES IN FIFTEEN HOURS! IN TWENTY HOURS FROM THIS MOMENT, I WILL BE IN NEW YORK CITY! How exciting is that? I'll probably still check in here, so I won't disappear. And I will be back... let's see... Thursday, July 6. OH! And don't forget my bday, July 11! I WILL be doing something fun that day, which you are all invited to. I just don't know what yet. If anyone has any ideas for the BEST FREAKIN' PARTY OF THE YEAR!!! ...please share. :) Love, Lisa Ann P.S... I am waiting for the right guy, the guy I am meant to have a relationship with. And until then... I will be happy--dating, hanging out, or just practicing my flirting skills. Don't let me forget that, okay Diary?