Dear Diary, So I went to school today. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Everything went okay; a couple people talked to me, not very many people gave the disapproving look/questioning, I had some fun, and none of the teachers tried to really bug me... On the other hand, I really didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. Maybe it's just because I've been gone so often. Maybe it's because I have so much on my mind. Maybe it's because I've changed so much. I don't know. I just don't feel like I fit in. I enjoyed talking to Teri Ann. She's such a sweetheart... Okay, it's that time again where I go on and on about Jeremy in my diary. Ah, shut up and get used to it, diary. So we were in PoT class. Cowley was rambling and the class was goofing off. It was a have-fun-but-listen-to-what-I-say day. So Jeremy turns around and puts an iPod type thing on my desk and says, "Listen to this song." So I try to listen to it, but it's on super quiet and I don't put the headphones on 'cause I don't want Cowley to notice. I "listen" to it anyway, then give it back to Jeremy with a note saying that I couldn't really hear it but it sounds good. Then tonight I come home and get the song from my cousin, because I'm really curious about this song. Jeremy doesn't usually have me listen to songs, and NEVER in the middle of class. Here are some of the lyrics... "We could write our names here in the mud No one's around to see them... Well I could eat some gum And make my breath so minty fresh To kiss you Your breath will smell like wine I like that a lot Especially when I kiss you And I could hit my funny bone really hard And you could call me sweetheart... What's good for you is good for me And what's bad for you is bad for me... Cars break and people break down and other things break down too So lets go down together Down together Down together" Very interesting song... But what I'm wondering is WHY did he have me listen to THIS song in paticular? Just 'cause he liked it? Or was I supposed to read something out of it?? Something of how he felt? Probably not. Just wishful thinking on my part... So that's my Jeremy Story for the day. Oh, except he stil hasn't emailed me back from like two days ago... That boy is CONFUSING. Gosh. I think that's pretty much it. School and Jeremy, Jeremy and school. Oh. Cassie is going on the Drama tour tomorrow. I wish she wasn't. Not because I'm jealous, but because I REALLY need her right now... she told me "I don't think it's a good idea to get the hormones surging for jeremy again." lol. Oh Cassie, I love you. Maybe it is just hormones (although wouldn't I be way turned off by him really really really not liking me anymore?), but the problem is I've never stopped liking him--even though I tried to convince everyone (especially myself) that I did... This is way off topic. I finished with Jeremy for the night... Anyway. I just wish Cassie were available to talk to... Or someone... Well, I PROMISED my mother I'd be off the computer 28 minutes ago... If she wakes up and finds me on, I'm in BIG trouble. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow... Or ever... Or something... Love, Lisa Ann