Dear Diary, It seems like I'm always writing about the day before. Yesterday was okay. I got some things done I wanted to do; the library, tanning, going on a walk, etc. I had a LOT of down time, though... I pretty much just sat around waiting for midnight... The midnight movie was good. I was super worried no one would come, but I called Jerry and he got some people to come. Here's who came: Mariah, Jerry, Austin, Emma, Barbara, Shamika? (I don't really know her or her name, so sorry if I got it wrong), and myself. So... I AM SUPER, SUPER, SUPER GRATEFUL TO MARIAH FOR COMING WITH ME!!!!!! Because I'm not too comfortable with that crowd... I mean, I'm friends with Jerry and Austin, but Austin as a gf who I don't know that well, and Barbara and I never really hit it off. So THANK YOU MARIAH! The ride back was extremely awkward. Not only were 7 of us crammed into Jerry's tiny truck, but they started talking about all these things they were going to do with Barbara... things that I was not invited to... And Mariah, I really apologize about Austin. I didn't really know he was going to be there. I should've just picked you up myself, and then we could've been away from all those mean people. The movie itself was hilarious. I thought Cars was going to be stupid, but once again I was proved wrong... I still think its lame how much publicity and merchandising they have though. So I really, really want to have a girl party tonight, but... Well KJ's birthday party is sometime today, I've heard, and it's not wise to plan more than one party a night. MAN. So complicated. 'Course, I can just invite people who I know won't be at KJ's party... But that means Morgan can't come. :( Hmm... I don't know. Jessie and I said we were going to have a pity party, but I want to invite Teri Ann and Tara and... uh... I dunno who else... Maybe we four will just hang out together. I'll have a pity party another night, and every girl who is sick of boys can come! It'll be way fun. My goal from now until August is to be doing something every weekend. Yes! This summer is starting to go a little faster... And July will just fly by because I'll be so busy... SEVEN DAYS, TWO HOURS, AND TWENTY-ONE MINUTES UNTIL I LEAVE FOR NEW YORK! Sixteen days, twenty-three hours, and nine minutes until my birthday! DANG I have to plan something soon. Well y'all leave July 11th open for my party, k? Do you ever have days where it's just a little too hard to be confident? Yesterday was like that... I think today is going to be, too. Love, Lisa Ann —Later— OH MY GOSH I AM SO UNLUCKY... I wasn't invited to KJ's birthday party. But I figured I'd get over it. I mean, I don't know KJ that well, anyway, so I didn't feel TOO bad that a lot of my friends were going and I'd be sitting at home. But I decided to go hang out with my sister and her family. They wanted to go try out their fishing poles (my nieces have little toy ones) just for fun. Guess where we decided to go? First Dam. Guess where KJ's party is being held? First Dam. SURPRISE! I pulled up and I was like, hey, isn't that Emma... and then I looked around, and the place was SWARMING with people I knew. So I told my sister I had to go and then got out of there as quickly as freakin' possible. It sucked. Big time. It's bad enough to KNOW that there's a party going on that you aren't invited to. It's way worse to SEE the party going on without you. What are the chances that KJ’s party was being held at the same place we randomly decided to go to? Gah I hate my life sometimes. I really don't understand why I'm not more a part of that group. I mean, I'm friends with a couple of them, and the rest seem to hate me. I don't get it. Most the time it doesn't bother me, but it makes life uncomfortable when it comes to parties. Yup... My confidence is DEFINITELY shot for today. Love, Lisa Ann —Much Later— I had Teri Ann and Cassie over to make up the stupidness of earlier. It was fun. We played board games and ate chocolate. Teri Ann brought me presents she had gotten in NYC and D.C. for me! Yay!