Dear Diary, Drama, anger, stress, tears, exhaustion, and a little bit of fun and happiness. That sums up my life in these past few days... Kadee and I drove to SLC and had a way good time. We had dinner with Gary and Sarah. I'm liking Gary more. I'm not ready for them to get married... or even engaged... but I can have fun with them. Oh, I met his kids too. They're cute little kids. It's weird to think that Sarah may be their stepmom someday... Does that make me a step-aunt? Hmm... Anyway. There was major drama however. With Kadee and Markus jerk. They were texting, and they both started saying some not so nice things... but then he started swearing at her and saying really terrible things. It was awful. I was so ticked off! Kadee has done nothing wrong in that relationship, and he's blaming her for everything. Gah. What a jerk. Kadee's taking it pretty well, though. We keep laughing because I'm more angry at him then she is. lol. She's so easy going. The next morning in drama rehearsal, I was still kinda mad, but whatever. Then... we were all standing around while Wharton was blocking people... And all of a sudden, she turns and seriously yells, "Lisa Lacy, I've seen you talking three times while I've been trying to work on this. If you can't stop talking, you won't be in this scene." Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at me. All 80 cast members. I was like... what the crap is she talking about? It frustrated me, but I figured she's insane and who cares. Although I did think that if anyone else did something not nice to me that day, I'd probably start bawling. Anyway, I tried really hard not to talk at all the rest of rehearsal. Then, right near the end, I whispered one sentence to Kadee. Wharton stops what she's doing and turns and GLARES at me. Everyone else looks at me again, too, and the place is dead quiet for thirty seconds. Well, I started bawling. I mean, I waited until I walked off stage. But I was so freaking upset. It's so good Kadee was with me, because I almost walked up to Wharton right there to yell at her and then quit the show. Kadee convinced me not to talk to her, and I went in the bathroom and cried and yelled and kicked stuff. I was SO INCREDIBLY mad. She's decided to hate me, and so she humiliated me in front of the entire cast for no reason. All she cares about is herself and her little "stars." Everyone else is dirt in her eyes. It pisses me off. I was going to talk to her about it later, but I chickened out. My dad called and left a message with her, and she's supposed to call him back sometime... Sometiems I hate that lady so much, I seriously just want to quit. That day sucked... I cried four times throughout the day... Today was better. It helped that Wharton wasn't there most of the day... Rehearsal went pretty smoothly. I almost feel ready to open... Kind of... Anyway. Lots of anger lately. But people have been pretty nice to me. Like that day with Wharton, a few people asked how I was doing. Jessie bought me chocolate! And Chelsey is just a dear. But seriously, I probably would've quit the show by now were it not for Kadee. She saved me. Oh! One night after rehearsals, Kadee and I were decked out in stage make up, and we had to run to the store... So we decided to go to K-Mart and take pictures in the booth! It was so fun. Everything was so hilarious... And our pictures turned out way cute! Hmm... So I really love my Church. Tonight it just hit me... that being LDS... is pretty much the greatest thing ever. Being able to pray to God and know that He really is there, that He really does love all of us, no matter what our sins or our weaknessess... to know that God will never turn His back on us, that everything will work out because God is with us everyday... to know that I can go to God anytime I need Him, and He will bless me... is the most amazing thing in the world. My testimony grew so much tonight... I just wish that I could be as dedicated to God and keeping His commandments as God is dedicated to loving me... Revelation 21:4 "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." Love, Lisa Ann