Dear Diary, These are supposed to be the best years of my life. They're not. I'm sixteen. I should be gossiping with girls, going out with guys, learning cool stuff in school. I should be happy. I'm miserable. I'm so sick of nobody caring about me. Even in my own family, I'm the least important person. Everyone just ignores me as much as they can. I hate it. I hate not having anyone to talk to, I hate not having anyone who cares, I hate not being important in anyone's life. How can Cassie NOT know what's wrong? I've told her a MILLION times how I felt. How she's abandoned me. How she's made promises and broken them within a few days. No matter how many times I tell her, how many times I sit her down and explain how she's stabbing me in the back, it never changes. She doesn't love me. She might love the memories we have. But she doesn't love me. Not enough to help me, to talk to me, to SHOW me that she cares. She can say whatever she wants. But if she doesn't show it, well, it doesn't mean anything. I want to scream. I want to punch something. I want to throw glass objects against the wall. I want to... I don't know. But it doesn't matter what I want. I've learned that in life. I've resigned myself that things aren't going to get better. I'm not going to feel happier, and people aren't going to start loving me. But it still hurts to know that. I'm SO done with everything. I wish I could just live on a deserted island, far away from people who hurt me. I would lie on the beach everyday, and dream that my life was wonderful... I close my eyes when I get too sad I think thoughts that I know are bad Close my eyes and I count to ten Hope it’s over when I open them I want the things that I had before Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door I wish I could count to ten Make everything be wonderful again ... Go to my room and I close my eyes I make believe that I have a new life I don’t believe you when you say Everything will be wonderful someday ... I just want my life to be the same Just like it used to be Some days I hate everything I hate everything Everyone and everything Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now... I don’t wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now