i still love him. and he goes on and on about his gf and how he doesn't even know how he wants to be with her and i'm supposed to give him advice? i'm nothing to him. nothing. i swear it. i'm just that girl he dumped and he feels bad about that but i mean nothing to HIM. and this is stupid because he totally tells me he doesn't feel that way at all but i'm just such a dork for still loving him and i hate myself so much because i care more about him than how i feel so i torture myself like i did tonight. i can't be his friend. i don't want to be his friend. i just want it all to go away. i love him and i want everything to go away. i have to go cry now.