It seems to me that it's possible to be happy. It seems possible to marry the boy I love and live with him forever and be happy. Not happy every single day of my life, but overall happy. I went to Houston with Aaron and his parents today. They had to take their computer to be fixed, and so I was invited to go. Aaron's parents seem so perfect for each other. They're both goofy and intelligent and caring, among other good qualities. They met in college and they've been together and happy ever since. And by happy of course I mean overall happy. I've seen the two of them fighting and it's not pretty, but fighting never is. Overall happiness is my goal. To be happy with my situation, with the people in my life, with what I've done and what I plan to do. There are some days when I think I'll never be to a point where I'm happy with myself and my life. I'm generally an optimistic person (it's because I don't pay attention to the state of world affairs I think), but there are just some days when I feel very down about things. I know, though, that it's possible to be happy because of Aaron's parents. It's a wonderful feeling. I came home from Aaron's the other day and I found an envelope stuck in the screen door. It was from the Jehovah's Witnesses wanting to share the Word of God with us poor, unwitting, damned Catholics. It wasn't put quite like that, but that was the general message. We were invited to join them for a Bible study lesson, one-on-one. It flashed through my mind to call them and set up an appointment, and then to show off my Catholic ideology when they tried to convert me. It bothers me when people try to sell their religion door-to-door. That's not how it's supposed to work. It's like believing in God isn't good enough, but there must be strict rules to follow if you want to get to Heaven. That can't be how it is. If it is then Heaven is very sparcly populated. People make assumptions about Catholic beliefs without knowing what they're talking about. My love does this quite often, but I'm a little more patient with him than with other people. It's a silly thing for these people to try to convert people door-to-door because a lot of people are just fine with what they have. They're good people wheather they have a religion or not, and that seems to be the best that can be done.