Word of the Day: didactic I remember what happened this week last year. I wonder if now, are things better? They may not be. Michelle and Nicole went home yesterday, Kim went home Thursday, and Aaron went home for Homecoming yesterday. He wanted me to go but he didn't want me to be in trouble, so he thought it best for me not to go. Kate went to a Halloween party last night and stayed over, so I had the rooms all to myself last night. I could have gotten all I had to read for Crime and Punishment read, but I watched movies. I have a weekend's worth of no distractions, so I feel justified in watching my favorite movie. Kate asked me yesterday before she left if I wanted to go with her. I said that I didn't. She said she felt bad leaving me all by myself in the rooms. That got me to thinking: do I really like being by myself anymore? At home I'm by myself all the time and I don't mind it a bit. But this summer, with working at the Holiday Inn, with being at Aaron's house every day, I think I might have gotten away from my need to be alone as much as before. I felt myself, as I was going to bed, missing my roommates, wishing they were there, perhaps even feeling a little bit lonely. I still don't really mind it because I know I won't have distractions when I'm working, but I don't seem to value being alone as being a complete necessity in my life anymore. I want to be alone so I can work. There are days when I'm never completely by myself, and I don't mind. Which is absolutely different from a year ago, when all I wanted was to be by myself, without anyone disturbing my peace. But is wanting society better for me than wanting to be by myself? Sometimes I think it is, but sometimes I think it's not.