Word of the Day: contiguous I've been feeling really mean lately. It's better than last week, when I was plain feeling like crap, but there's seemingly no reason. I have no idea. I do nice things, but I still feel mean, or like being mean. Example: I knew that JD hadn't gotten a lot of sleep one night, so the next night I fed Patrick all night and let him [JD] sleep in. But, for some reason, I felt like I shouldn't have done that, that it wasn't going to be worth it to let him sleep all night and later into the next day. Which brings up the question in my mind of kindness being worth something. I've never been the kind of person to do something nice for someone and expect something in return [because, of course, that's not the reson I did whatever I did in the first place]. However, I seem to perform kind actions, help out, do more than what is expected, and then soon afterwords feel quite underappreciated. So, thinking again, maybe I do expect something in return. What's the Golden Rule? 'Treat others as you would expect to be treated.' What happens when you do that and never get treated as you expect? I'm not saying it's not worth it for me to be kind--I usually like to. But recently I suppose I've gotten to feel underappreciated again, which might be why I'm resentfully doing what I do. Moving on--Patrick went to Dr. Ortiz today, one of the neonatologists who watched him when he was in the hospital after he was born. She likes to do developmental studies on all of the premature babies that she cared for, and so Patrick's first appointment with her was today. Nothing significant actually happened, but he did get weighed and measured. Six week weigh-in--eight pounds. Six week length-in--twenty-one inches. Patrick and I are going to spend the night at my mother's tonight. My dad's out of town, and so my mom wanted me to stay over with Patrick so that she could spend time with him and me [and cook for me, yesssssssssssss] before she went and met up with my dad tomorrow afternoon. Mmmmmmmmmm, fried shrimp. And my mommy.