i am not: nice i hurt: myself i love: music... chocolate i hate: bagel i fear: death i hope: for happiness a far cry i hear: chicken sizzling in a pan i crave: soda and chocolate i regret: oct. 4-nov 12 i cry: alot i care: about...?my family... school... my REAL friends i always: pretend to be happy i long to: go away make people understand i feel alone: right now i listen: to songs that make me feel better and the newborn kittens mewing i hide: everything i drive: when maria lets me i sing: in the shower.. in chorus... i sing okay.. i dance:in class.... when i'm bored i write: journal and poems i breathe: wasted air i play: with the cats i miss: my best friend i search: for truth i learn: when i listen i feel: hated...betrayed... slightly loved and happy i know: you lie i say: nothing i succeed: in writing... school... i fail: at love... hard tests i dream: about stupid things... stupid people... that make me cry i sleep: at night. when i need to escape i wonder: if i will ever be truly i worry: about my family.. my grades... my state of mind i have: alot of crap i dont need i give: hugs and words of... stuff i fight: with the evil people when they lie to me i wait: for realization i need: love.. truth i am: stronger than i really think i think: there are peoplein my life that don't need to be. i think i hate them.